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mellow story: hope you never feel the same way.


As a person who has 'not really good past' with someone who said he loves me but the truth is like a tragedy instead of teenager's sweet romance, I've experienced met someone who said he'd like to kill himself just to spend time with me, the person who send me bullshit poems but can shoot me in the right time so those trash can easily persuade a transition shs to college yet vulnerable girl like me to give my heart too. The shuck who believes he's the most handsome boy in this world so it gives him a right to collect his dump jar of hearts.
Meh.

He shot me in front of my friends and those rumors spread like the wind. I started to live my life as a normal junior in my faculty with him until I heard that he has approached one of my friends, and shortly, I knew that he has dozens of secret girls and more and more.
It’s very heartbreaking at the first time but now, hah so nasty. like.. who do you think u are?

But, it's not the prominent matter. Because yeah let the trash decayed.
 The truth is, Lately, I feel those bad experienced create something different on how people make those things as a very bad and insulting joke for me. People tried to relate me with everything he did, like if he dated a new girl, there will be some people stated to me...
“Be patient, dude” like... what? I don’t give any damn for whatever he wants to do. And I don’t need those “be patient”, because I’m so happy with my life now and I never cried because of him even just a lil drop of tear. It’s like people see me as vulnerable girl who really poor and need to be given an empathy. Oh God. Please be more sensitive to others.

Sometimes I feel tired to say "don't relate me with those things anymore" I really wish they would just stop it, just stop talking about him in front of me.
 Just because I laugh and still being nice, it doesn't mean I can't be hurt. Swear, people will never know how worst the feeling is and I hope there will be no one who feels the same way. 

Unfortunately they still make it as a joke, just because... just because they want to laugh, it makes me wonder how poor the way some people looking for something to create a lil happiness, because it’s not funny at all.

Be sensitive, sometimes a smile is just a power for someone to not angry and explode, because they don't want to rudely broke anything, and don't have any choice other than smile. 

And I found this is because he’s not only draw a worst scar, he makes people giving an unreasonable empathy when I swear don’t need it under those stupid reasons. He’s not only humiliate me as woman, but also showing disrespect to me as a human who has a feeling too.
Making a person who passionate with writing to have some hard feeling, will give you two options:
Your name will turn into endless words of complexion between wholehearted expressions of love that turn into a precious trust given to you, or it will be a hype expression of hate which burn into the worst ashes ever.


Comments

  1. Fira FirdausDecember 28, 2017 at 3:41 AM

    Hi can, Nice to see you write on your blog again hihi. And I see some changes in this blog <3
    I don't know what to say after read this but this post is so badass wkwk
    Semoga tidak terjadi pada perempuan lain, semoga tidak terjadi pada perempuan di kampus kita terutama, sudahlah kuliah susah, dilukai pula seperti itu. Haha

    Keep writing can! maaf englishku payah, mudah-mudahan libur berkepanjangan ini aku bisa belajar nulis bahasa inggris di blog!

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