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There's someone who die to feel it

I forgot the specific date of the day, but it's a bright evening when I saw a girl, her age is around 15-17 years old. The girl is crossing the zebra cross, her daddy hold her hand really tight. It's kinda my favorite view even some people may taught it's a common thing to be seen.

I love to see the scene of a daddy protect his little girl in a drama or in a real life. All of people love to see an affection, including me, even I don't taste any of it. Just by imagine it will happen to me someday, it's enough to make my tear drop down as a form of happiness.

Suddenly I remember some people ever ask me why I can be as that hard to myself. Today I realize that it's not a choice, it's a must. Cause I don't have a supporter in my life, I just have those who I 'call' as supporter, there's no one who will motivate me after a failure, I have to handle it by my own, I have to fix my broken heart by myself and swallow my tear as it drops while I have to force to sleep and deal with a bad day.
That's why, I should never open an opportunity to something or someone to broke my heart.

I need to stay away from the one who has a possibility to leave me, I need to study hard, I must not falling in love, I have to keep myself away from romance, I must be willing to work hard and smile as much as I can. Cause once I permitted myself to be broken, it little bit hard to tell myself that I am okay.

The truth is, sometimes even the strongest ones need someone to strengthen them. For all of you who blessed with much love around your family, best friends, friends etc, just spread your love, so that the one who never taste it, at least can see it and imagine it just may be happened to them someday

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