You argue with your brain on how you aren't as that depressed regarding to someone's treatment on you. U complain too hard to yourself that what people have done to you is not such a matter. U blaming your self for unreasonable strange feeling that suddenly come to your heart after unexpected thing comes to your life. U try to contemplate the way people's mind is okay based on every single person's character. When actually... Those strange feeling is named as.... H u r t. You're not hurt because you're too sensitive, you're not hurt because people are too cruel to be human, you're not hurt because of disappointment, but.. You hurt, because it matters. Whatever it's a little matters or even unexplained heavy. It's just matters for yourself. Don't care it's a thing or a person, your heart and your brain have claimed that it gives effect toward your life. Conscious or unconscious, they're take a part even in a very m

All of us love our parents, have our own idol, like and dislike, expect a pretty house, revere technology,  share a half of our heart and build a cute romance, struggling to be outstanding, and proving the existence. Will come a time when the sun become hazy, heavy rain beneath the eyes, dizziness, suddenly lost the heartbeat, no more jokes, smile which fade away. When we lose someone we love, we lose something most important in our life, or When someone we care about.. passed away. people will give the deepest condolence, saying sorry to hear that, smoothly clap our shoulder hopefully bringing the strength, try to wiping the tear so it could be able to reduce the sickness. But... No matter how sad we are, don't care how miserable the pain inside, Whatever the feeling of being lonely, or the scars had been in a severe condition, life will always goes on, no tolerance. The date don't even stop, the hours will never care, the neighbors whose deliver their condolences wil

I know you're the strongest, super power even huge more than nuclear weapon to explode. Everyone bet you such gods, you spread to unknown area without need to permitted. You're micro but you're hold out as a champion against giant chemical chain. Even the smartest in some cases don't have any idea about how to shoot you down. No one pray for your existence, but you become the most famous one. You move as fast as wind in a cloudy hopeless day. Lately, God always hear your name when I'm praying along the days and night, through sunset and sunrise. You must be happy cause I mention your name whenever my forehead touches the floor, begging with sob for you to never exist in this world. Surely, you have nothing idea about how was my days when you start to approach the most powerful woman in my life, it's like you broken whole of my soul. If I have a chance to ask one non living thing in this world, I will ask you, my question is just, what did my mother ever

Parallel with gender equality, women somehow begging for world to give respect towards them. Women stand up against discrimination, women valued themselves as same as man who have a right to pursue their happiness. They fervently allay any form of humiliation toward them. They brave enough to shout out about their idea that women should have a protection under a legitimate law and constitution. Some tragedy sometime force women to scream out loud. Raping, act of despising, arbitrary actions, etc become the most famous highlight in any news media which show the number of people who kindly want to understand woman as deep as possible were extremely tragic. Analyze those phenomenon, assuming women aren't always right. The basic potent weapon that women should use is, being expensive. Teenagers who endlessly dedicate themselves to the country by drawing some incredible achievements are fabulous enough to defeat some who just being insane judging their president in every social medi

"No matter what, when you're cheating on her. You're not more than an accursed creepy crocodile." Maybe you don't have any idea how was her feeling when you approach her at the first time, you become the object she think along the night, she's waiting for your text along the day, You become the reason her reddish cheek when someone mention your name, you become her favorite topic when she got meet up with her close friends, even you don't know that your name start to get involved when she's praying. You can't hide your sin by saying your reasons, whatever it's. Don't blame your new crushes because there will be no one who can occupy when there's no space, and you create it. Also don't blame your girlfriend if you're not statisfy enough in your relationship, because you too make the condition even worst and by doing cheating you're not going to solve anything. When you decide to cheat, means you already create a silly o

Lip tint, lip gloss, compact powder, foundation, mascara, eye liner, blush on, etc being such important stuffs that should fulfill woman's bag nowadays. Before go to mall, campus, hangout, having a great girls day out, party, or anywhere it's almost impossible to find a woman without at least powder on her face. Being called beautiful is like a super magic word, even it's just a word consists of b-t-f-l complete with 4 vowels it could makes a day for women, contribute positive energy, increase someone's feeling of confident, draw a pleasing smile, and even far make people think that they're not an underdog. How society said that beautiful is something relative, when actually most  of them already agreed (even not through a legal approval) that beautiful is when you have  a flawless white face, an awesome proportional body, a nice symmetrical smile, a pair of leg which is a duplication of models, stylish hair without bad hair day, short curly on thursday and  lon

The only reason if I have a boyfriend right now is just because I want us to build our Future strength together. My existence is not to fulfill your lust, here we gonna do our best to brighten our future together, so none of us will just waiting the other to be success. I beg you to explore yourself, study hardest, trying your best, and I will do the same. If you fall, you don't need to worry cause here I am, as your mate will support you beyond my limit and pray for you so that God will be our ultimate Savior and of course failure isn't going to break down our bridge and you still be able to conquer anything. I hate when someone try to limit my steps, bother my social activities, or even get mad and jealous only because I don't reply a text or pick a call. I do believe we should never be in an irrational and dysfunctional relationship. If you're a type of guy who prefer  a beautiful woman, then there's nothing you can expect from me. I will grow old, disease s

Maturity somehow take an important part in human life. That word is taking a role as much as people need to socialize with others. But so far maturity still being really absurd to be define as well. We cannot define maturity through ages, or even faces. We can't see it from ages because sometimes a 23 years old woman still has an unstable condition of psychology,  as well as we cannot observe it from faces. Maturity is also not simply about the capabilities to fixed some problems by own. Because those capabilities perhaps because we already passed through so many huge problems which it can't guarantee people's maturity since we still feel that insecure when we face a new kind of problem. Maturity is about how we can create peace inside our soul. Maturity is also about how  we're not easily being flammable, maturity can be measured by how far people can prioritize other's necessity than themselves . keep people away from being hurted as much as we don't wan

How you define missing somebody? it's 21.59 pm when my intellectual lobe still hardly remember what the things ever happened in the past. In fact I don't really know what's the definition of missing somebody. I thought that there's someone that I miss, but I doubt to named it as 'missing' when what actually I feel right know is my heart and my brain just like bloody to know how's life going on to him. Now I'll be like an agony lay down in my bed counting how many hours left for finally meet him in a right time. This purulent wound should be overcome before it comes to an irreversible pain. I found no specific reason why I could be as this excessive, all I know is just this feeling come up since I cannot see your presence in my life like you used to be. where are you and what are you doing? those two questions become really noteworthy regarding to you. How can those simple questions haunted me as much as algebra in math or even more. Can you just